And love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves.-Queen
December: Newsletter production, being so close to releasing 50 pounds but not reaching it, Nicolas taking longer than usual to pass his 14s (he’s in first grade), planning a Rose Parade party for 300+, everyone wanting a piece of me, what program was I going to launch?! I felt like I was under a pressure cooker and it wasn’t love.
Who had the finger on the timer? Your truly.
January: Nicolas passed his 14s when he was ready, the work party went off without a hitch (and I savored every moment of New Year’s Day), and my business grew without a newsletter or program launch. Me? Acute bronchitis, two rounds of antibiotics, many doctor visits, being sent home from work (it wasn’t all bad).
How did I start loving myself? I took my finger off the timer and I dared to change the way I was caring for myself.
I am loving myself by letting go of other people’s timetables for their businesses. I am loving myself by letting go of the idea that I had to do it all myself because I am somewhat technical and a quick study; I hired an awesome online business manager. I am loving myself by resting…a lot for me. I am loving myself for being 47 pounds lighter than I was in January 2009. I am loving myself by focusing on ease and harmony in all areas of my life. It’s interesting. As I focus on the feeling states of ease and harmony, it is being delivered real-time. It’s coming in ways I never would have imagined in December and there’s not a timer to be found.
